I checked with my father, who is a rabbi, and found out that one can wear tallis and tefillin during afternoon prayers if one missed morning prayers. So I did. And it felt wonderful.
I can feel channels opening up for visions etc., but believe it or not this time I am determined to resist them. Last October we finally picked up on the fact that a vision phase is always followed by a bipolar episode, and it's just not worth the risk. I am taking precautions, including keeping my eyes open during prayer if the connection feels really strong, to ensure that I do not go to that world.
I love that world. It's beautiful. But since I cannot function and stay healthy in this world if I visit there, I will stay in this world for now.
About Me
- free_to_dream
- I am a bipolar, Jewish young adult (had my Hebrew birthday, the one I count, and turned 23 this past January) who also suffers from Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy. I love life and I live for my best friends: they are my purpose and my reason for trying so hard. I remain passionately devoted to those I love; I will not let my disorders make me totally self-centered. I like to read, write, and sew. My Rabbinical school plans did not work out, and I am now hoping to go into the field of Early Childhood Education. Please note: I am currently maintaining only Carried in His Hands. Enjoy!
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