I was sitting in the car with my father yesterday, and we were talking about this and that Jewish. We were discussing God's role in the Holocaust, and I suddenly turned to him and said, "Forget mainstream Conservative Jews who just don't care. Take serious Conservative Jews. Are serious Conservative Jews more comfortable with emotional problems than Orthodox Jews?" and he said yes, absolutely; that in fact, that was what made the difference.
I am slowly taking on more and more Jewish practice right now. Two days ago I prayed once; yesterday I prayed twice; today I hope to pray three times and I also said the blessing after eating when I got done with breakfast. I am loving my Judaism and doing Jewish things. My metaphor of God as river and people as rocks is serving me well, though I do plan to go back to reading and seeking for a new one. I believe we should always be growing and stretching our relationship with God. Comfort feels nice, and is OK for a while, but we musn't just fall into it and forget to grow.
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- free_to_dream
- I am a bipolar, Jewish young adult (had my Hebrew birthday, the one I count, and turned 23 this past January) who also suffers from Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy. I love life and I live for my best friends: they are my purpose and my reason for trying so hard. I remain passionately devoted to those I love; I will not let my disorders make me totally self-centered. I like to read, write, and sew. My Rabbinical school plans did not work out, and I am now hoping to go into the field of Early Childhood Education. Please note: I am currently maintaining only Carried in His Hands. Enjoy!
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