(As promised, here is the more important of my blog entries today.)
I just got done watching two 9/11 videos. For years now, I have been watching "Heaven 9/11," which is a little girl talking to her father who died on 9/11. (Does not specify how.) She's always been talking as though a year had passed; this year, someone updated the video for five years out, ten years out--that got me crying.
A custom I added in recent years (starting just a year or two ago) is to also watch one--and only one, because I am super sensitive and nothing's going to change that--video of actual news footage from that day. The video I chose today was really long, and I almost quit in the middle several times. In the end, however, I made it through. I am tremendously proud of myself for that.
Part of what helped me make it through was holding a teddy bear; I am not ashamed to admit that holding a doll or stuffed animal helps me through things. All my dolls etc. have assigned ages; this bear, Theodora, is the only one old enough to watch news clips with me.
I believe in the power of spontaneous prayer; I believe God hears when we cry out; what came to my lips today--and yes, I said it aloud, if only in a whisper--was "God be with their parents; God be with their siblings; God be with their children."
So may it be.
"Don't tell God how big your storm is; tell your storm how big your God is."
I believe in God.
I believe in God.
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- I am a bipolar, Jewish young adult (had my Hebrew birthday, the one I count, and turned 23 this past January) who also suffers from Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy. I love life and I live for my best friends: they are my purpose and my reason for trying so hard. I remain passionately devoted to those I love; I will not let my disorders make me totally self-centered. I like to read, write, and sew. My Rabbinical school plans did not work out, and I am now hoping to go into the field of Early Childhood Education. Please note: I am currently maintaining only Carried in His Hands. Enjoy!