"Don't tell God how big your storm is; tell your storm how big your God is."

I believe in God.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Fluctuating Faith

Yesterday I said I trusted God completely through this episode, and yesterday I did. Today, however, it's harder.

I'm not sure why it's so hard for me to trust and believe today. My symptoms are no worse than yesterday's. I am still plagued by causeless anxiety, but not so much that I need the emergency fix of my as-needed anti-anxiety medication, and my noise thresholds might even be a little higher.

And, on the other hand, the irritability just kicked in again. However, although every day is hard, overall this episode is starting to dissipate. I should find strength and hope in that.

Also, just because I feel like it: Yelling for "Erin"! Yelling for "Erin"! YELLING FOR "ERIN"!

1 comment:

  1. I've had Erin on my heart in the last few weeks. Her name and yours are tagged on my computer and I pray for you each time I see your names. Praying that God will heal your mind - calm your spirit - help you KNOW HIM as you struggle through this episode.


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